Over achiever syndrome
There I was laying on the couch feeling exhausted. my body had enough, my mind was shot and I had a two-year-old running around
That was a time in my life when I had 3 jobs, I was constantly working and raising a child.
I had literally worked myself sick
I would have a goal, work really hard to achieve it and then I found and I still wasn’t satisfied
so then I picked a new goal
I was constantly seeking in achieving, Yet still feeling like my efforts weren’t enough I was so focused on getting to the next thing
Around The same time I also started getting into personal growth, development and diving deeper into spirituality
Again I noticed the same pattern appearing
There was always something to strive for, learn, master get to the next level of achievement
After many years I realized how exhausted I was
I was overwhelmed and not able to enjoy the moment or be present
I couldn’t celebrate my success because I was so focused on what was next
When is enough enough? It was an endless game.
I was tired of getting Getting triggered or set off
I noticed I was frustrated, apathetic
And the Feelings of not enough and lack all pointed to an underlying Low self worth. Who I was just didn’t feel like enough. I was seeking outside of myself for what I have now found within
I needed to slow down,
Give myself a break and create space for just being
It has taken a lot of work to learn to be happy with me as I am, to be grateful for what I have and where I am at….acceptance
I had to learn to kill my ego. It was not up to me to save the world or even myself
I didn’t need saving.
Who was I to determine how things should be?
What is present is perfect just the way it is, because that is what it is
I am enough just as I am….and so are you!
I invite you to do less and receive more
Celebrate what you have
Practice gratitude and compassion
Enjoy the journey
There is no end destination
There is no arrival
The prize is the present moment
The destination is the present